Dolly pup passed away today at about half past twelve, she was given an injection and died in my arms.
I can’t stop crying, I feel like an emotional wreck.
The vet told me that she was in an awful amount of pain and she was crying when I got there. She was doped up and very groggy but her little tail was wagging when she smelled me and I whistled then called her name.
She was all drooly on the one side and her little bum was covered in wee and all yellow where they hadn’t cleaned her… She hadn’t eaten in over 24 hours and I swear she just broke my heart.
I just wanted to hold her forever and clean her up but instead I brought her home and buried her in the garden under my little sisters rose bush.
I still have all her bowls and her toys and her collar. I can’t part with them.
I’m so miserable I have cried so much in the last 48hrs I’ve strained my eye and given myself a migraine which won’t leave.
I really just want my baby back, why couldn’t I keep her?
It’s been exacerbated by worms and she’s really unwell D:
She keeps having convulsions due to the pain and is crying her little heart out.
The vet has also said she’s 100% blind in both eyes and has been since birth… I kinda knew this was coming as she’s a very messy pup and likes to sit in the water or food bowl whilst eating and always dips her paws in to check and see which is which.
God I just really miss her so much!
I want her to be healthy and out of pain and I realise I might lose her but as long as she isn’t suffering anymore that’s something I’ll have to deal with.